Push

When I was sixteen... I was madly in love... and madly insecure as well. I remember listening to this song and I told a close friend that this was what I wanted in my relationship:

she said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
and I don't know if I've ever been really loved
by a hand that's touched me, and I feel like something's gonna give
and I'm a little bit angry, well

this ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around
you don't owe me, we might change it
yeah we just might feel good
(CHORUS)

I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted
I will, I will

she said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya
and I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
you couldn't stand to be near me
when my face don't seem to want to shine
cuz it's a little bit dirty, well

don't just stand there, sayin nice things to me
cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged, and you
you don't know me, well I can't change
Well, I won't do anything at all
(CHORUS)

oh but don't bowl me over
just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy
don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby
(CHORUS)

He was horrified. He was a mutual friend of ours and he said he would kill me if I treated her that way. The funny thing is he didn't understand what I meant by wanting our relationship to be like 'Push'.

I wanted the confidence to be able to take her for granted. No in the bad sense. But in the sense that I'd always know that she would be there when ever I needed her or whenever I wanted to see her. To know that she was mine and mine alone. That I wouldn't have to worry about guys hitting on her or trying to pick her up.

Like I said. I was an insecure bugger. But I still love the song :)