Dirty minds :)

Wherever you will go

Wherever You Will Go lyrics

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]
Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my loveI know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]
If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Dreaming about the past

She groaned in her sleep. It was another restless night. Bad dreams had plagued her for the past ten years. Her phone beeped incessantly. She moaned and reached for her phone.

'One new message. James.'

'James?!'

She got up quickly. And fumbled with her phone trying to read the message.

'Do not reply this sms. I just wanted to tell you something. Remember how you said you would smile and be really happy the day I got published. Today is that day. So smile for me. Like you used to all the time. Be safe. James.'

'Be safe.... It used to be 'I love you',' she thought and felt her heart ache.

He was always so cold and he used to frown all the time. Except when he looked at me. When he looked at me his eyes would cloud over with warmth. Then he'd seem more human. Not so cold.

'I love you. I want to spend the rest of my life waking up next to you. Just like this.' he had whispered in her ear one afternoon.

She smiled at him when he said that. But kept quiet. Later when she was alone, she cried . Tears of frustration.

'Hello?' she whispered.

'I told you not to reply the sms,' he said coldly.

'I didn't reply. I just called.'

'You're not getting away with this that easily,' he laughed and she relaxed.

'He's not angry,' she thought to herself.

'How are you?' he asked.

'I'm fine. Been better, been worse..' she replied.

'Thats my line. Not only do you disobey me, you steal my lines as well? You're hopeless,' he chided.

'What about you? How are you? Have you been looking after yourself?' she blurted all at once.

'What do you think?' there was an edge to his voice again.

'Drinking alot?' she added.

'Like a fish.' he said curtly.

'Why?' she said sadly. Knowing the answer before he said anything.

'Why do you think?' he countered.

'I'm sorry.' she said, feeling tears well up in her eyes.

'Don't be. I don't need your sympathy.'

'Its not sympathy. I just wished...' she left it hanging.

'That things could be different? That somehow they could work out?' he laughed coldly.

'Yea.' she said meekly.

He sighed deeply. 'If wishes were horses...' he started.

'I'd sell all them horses and buy some beer,' she ended for him.

'Something like that,' he said. She could feel his smile through the phone.

'Are you seeing anyone?' she asked suddenly.

'Its been ten years... I...' he choked.

'Is that a yes or a no?' she persisted.

'No.'

'Why not?' she asked.

'You know why,' he said.

'Because you still love me?' she pushed.

'I... I... I do.' he stammered.

'I have to go now.' she said. Tears flowing down her cheeks.

'We just started talking...' he pleaded.

'I know.'

There was an ackward silence for a while.

'Be safe.' he said simply.

'I love you too.' she said and hung up.

She looked at the ring on her finger. Sobs coming to her unchecked. Her baby, as if sensing her distress began to cry.

'What wrong honey? You woke the baby,' came a sleepy male voice.

'Nothing. I was just dreaming about the past.' she replied, wiping the tears from her eyes.

I'll be taking a short break from blogging

as you can tell from the recent posts... the heart just hasn't been in them... kinda pathethic emo stuff I've been writing...

theres a lot of things on my mind...

will I ever be able to lead a normal life?
will I ever be able to make some one else completely happy?
will I be safe to be around?
will I be a father one day?
will I be a good father?

where am I headed?
where am I going?

who is coming with me?

will I be okay?
will I be fine?

most importantly... will I ever be able to smile and mean it from the heart...

The hardest thing to say

Voiceless

Say something
you whisper to me
I look at you
and you're all that I see

Say it isn't true
you whisper to me
Say this isn't the way
it's meant to be

I look you in the eye
but I have nothing to say
No words to speak
to stop you from going away

I choke on syllables
the words won't come
I've lost my voice
and gone dumb

So many things to say
So many things to explain
I see you waiting to listen
Waiting in vain

I could pretend
I could lie
Rather than let
love fade away and die

I could pretend
I never did you wrong
That I was faithful to you
all along

But the words
just don't come
I've lost my voice
I've gone dumb

I stole comfort
in another's embrace
We did things
that were far from chaste

I kissed her
and thought nothing of you
I made love to her
as our passion grew

I held her close
like I've held you
I kissed her
like I've kissed you

I've wanted to tell you
to say something
That it was nothing more
than just a fling

But the words
just don't come
I've lost my voice
I've gone dumb

Voiceless
as I walk out the door
I whisper, 'I'm sorry'
I don't love you any more...

Nature's Tears

All is quiet
not a whisper of hello
not a hint of farewell

Tonight you are mine
and mine alone
The world fades into oblivion

the stars are put out
and the sun has been sent to bed
only the moon shines

whispering
whispering

the leaves trickle
along the path you walked

the foot prints
still fresh on the snow caked floor
along the path you walked

the sweet embrace
the gentle carress
everything is mine again tonight

in one kiss
I taste eternity
in one smile
I feel immortal

the wind

whispers
whispers

across the path you took

we'll make love
like tommorow doesn't matter
like the sun will continue its peaceful slumber forever

we'll hold each other close
like the morning fresh dew
trickling across the first buds of spring

one step at a time
slowly
but surely
you walked away from me

let the rain rip the cherry blossoms from its tree
let the wind tear the roses from its bed
let the sun bake dry the waterfalls

let the world fall apart
into tiny pieces beyond imagination
and beyond redemption

you weren't mine to keep

but my soul and heart
still whisper your name

across the snow layden path you took away from me...

Vinepedia presents : Getting a date and dating girls

Okay... so I was talking to a friend of mine and he raised a very interesting question. How do you get a date and what do you do on a date?

Ok. First of all, the obvious problem if you are single is how to get a date! There are several approaches depending on your looks and your financial status.

Easy peasy!
Look: Brad Pitt looks like me (not the other way round fool!)
Money: I own Microsoft
Approach: This one is simple enough. Just look around you, find any chick you fancy and say, 'I could have any girl in the world, but I chose you!'. Then flash stuff some 100 dollar bills in her cleavage and flash that million dollar smile of yours. If you get slapped, you're not as good looking as you thought you were. Or! The woman fancies carpet munching more than hiding the salami! Or she's a feminist! Oh wait... same damn thing!

Money talks!
Look: Butter curdles when I look at it!
Money: I own a small island and a few continents just for kicks
Approach: Get two little girls (cutesy type obviously) to walk in front of you and throw hundred dollar bills. Then, casually walk on the bills towards the girl and ask her out. If this doesn't work, shout, 'You gold digging bitch! I leave you for a second and your out on the streets selling yourself again?'

I can't afford you but I can sure f*ck your brains out!
Look: Women wet their panties (in the good way idiot... not piss themselves) when I walk by
Money: The IRS give me food tokens out of sympahty
Approach: Walk up to a girl and say, 'Pinch yourself now, cause I'm asking you out on a dream date on you!'. If she says she has a boyfriend, date her boy friend.

Hopeless dudes
Look: There's nothing left of a mirror when I look at it!
Money: I'm so ugly, Webster looks more manly than me!
Approach: Crawl up to a woman and beg her to date you. Threaten to jump of a bridge if she doesn't. If she still turns you down. Jump. You may be dead. But die knowing at least one person will think of you (with guilt) when you're gone.


Ok. Now that down to pat. What do I do with a girl on a date?

Here's vinepedia's 20 steps to a good date!

1. Take her to the movies.
2. Pick her up from her place with your car.
3. If you don't have a car, use your motorbike to pick her up.
4. If you don't have that either, suggest a scenic walk across the highway to enjoy the stars with her.
5. If she collapses from exhaustion, bring her home and screw her brains out. You walked for her after all. One sweet deed deserves another!
6. If the movie is at 2pm in the afternoon, get mommy to drive the both of you.
7. If mommy decides she wants to watch the movie too, you're screwed. Start back at point 1.
7. Look her in the eyes when you're talking to her. This will help you tell if she likes you or not. If she licks her lips or plays with her hair, we're in business. Proceed to 8. If not, proceed to 8 any way :p
8. Wait till you're about to reach an escalator and offer her a hand to step on the first step. Continue to hold her hand after that.
9. If she misteps and falls... LET GO STUPID! YOU DON'T WANT TO FALL TOO DO YOU?
10. Ask her what she wants to watch.
11. Pretend not to hear and buy tickets for a horror movie you've watched before so you know when the scary bits are coming.
12. Lift her cinema seat for her when she is about to sit.
13. Watch the movie.
14. Stretch out your hand over her head. Slowly place it over her shoulder. Please note that you should NOT have body odour when you do this! (if she passes out refer to 5)
15. Every time a scary part is coming, lean towards her and pull her close a little.
16. If she scream 'Rape!'... Run.
17. If she screams every few seconds in fear, put ear plugs on.
18. When the movies about to end, i.e. the touching scene between the hero and the chick, look at her, pull her closer and smile.
19. Talk about the movie with her on the way home.
20. Ask her out for another date if 1- 19 worked well. Beg for at least a blow job to cover the cost of the movie and petrol if it did not.