I am freeeeeeee... finally finish both assignments... I should have charged more... it was a bitch to do... took all of my brain power to crap out some nonsense to fill up the space... I hope she gets a good grade for it... cause I blood put a lot of effort into it...
I'm just 300 away from my new puppy now... any one wanna offer me some part time? :D
waiting on the cheque from the Star... which will never arrive I think... *sigh*
ok off to bed with me... got a meeting at ten... hospital appointment, then pool and movie with laura dearest...
I hope I'm not too sleepy to play pool and end up losing... -__-
that would be VERY embarassing...
my mom's doing ok... we'll know tommorow if its cancerous or not... I hope its not... I PRAY its not... *sigh*
if you're reading this I love you mom :)
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Seasons in the sun
Wistful
like the morning dew
that leaves the warmth
of the blooming rose
Forlorn
Like the cherry blossom tree
that sheds its children
in the chill of autumn
Yearning
Like the warmth
overshadowed by the
cold of winter
Melancholic
Like the gentle flakes
of pure white snow
that melt away
Disconsolate
Like the man
who's met his love
only to lose her
Season come
and seasons go
Regret is never eternal
but the pain remains
like the morning dew
that leaves the warmth
of the blooming rose
Forlorn
Like the cherry blossom tree
that sheds its children
in the chill of autumn
Yearning
Like the warmth
overshadowed by the
cold of winter
Melancholic
Like the gentle flakes
of pure white snow
that melt away
Disconsolate
Like the man
who's met his love
only to lose her
Season come
and seasons go
Regret is never eternal
but the pain remains
Poetry
Its been a while since I've written any poetry... any GOOD poetry... sometimes I do get inspirations to write things... but they're too painful to put to pen... so I leave them at the back of my mind and gather the strength to write them down some other day...
Its been more than two years since we broke up... and I still find myself thinking of you constantly... wondering what you are doing... if you're asleep or like me, awake in the middle of the morning pondering which path to take and where to go; more importantly, what to do.
I wonder if you realise that I miss you and the comfort talking to you always brought me. Regardless of the topic, speaking to you always brought me a peace of mind. And rest. I used to be able to sleep after talking to you. Knowing that everything is right and a feeling of peace would wash over me after we talked. And I'd sleep. Without dreams or nightmares. Just the way I like it.
Your birthday is coming soon. It will be the third birthday I miss. I guess somethings are not meant to be. Just like us I guess. Though a part of me would like to deny that, I've learned to accept the fact.
You asked me to let go. It was the most painful thing I have ever done. And I have let go in my own way. I just hold on to the memories we had, knowing that we will never make new memories together. It makes me a little sad to think of that. But it is the truth of the matter.
I am a little stressed out. The assignments I was working on, the files crashed and I have to redo them. Which is why I'm still up at 6am. Trying to rewrite as much as I can while I still remember what to write. Sigh. Its times like this I miss talking to you most. When I'm under tremendous pressure or stress. You'd always make things seem not as impossible as they actually are. Or you'd sing me a song and make me smile. You have a beautiful voice, and it rings at the hollow of my heart still.
Is it a kind of dream
flowing around in time
floating in my mind
drifting in my eyes
Is it a kind of wish
flying like a shooting star
falling like a fiery meteor
shining like the sun
Is it a kind of wonder
echoing like your laughter
whispering like your smile
smoothened like your touch
Been a little while for now
I've been keeping my eyes
searching for a sign
of your belated return
I sang all your songs
Whispered all your promises
Wishing they
would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
was it real
or just my fantasy
in a corner of my mind
Shall I be the one
to tell you love
that I love
and still love you
Its been more than two years since we broke up... and I still find myself thinking of you constantly... wondering what you are doing... if you're asleep or like me, awake in the middle of the morning pondering which path to take and where to go; more importantly, what to do.
I wonder if you realise that I miss you and the comfort talking to you always brought me. Regardless of the topic, speaking to you always brought me a peace of mind. And rest. I used to be able to sleep after talking to you. Knowing that everything is right and a feeling of peace would wash over me after we talked. And I'd sleep. Without dreams or nightmares. Just the way I like it.
Your birthday is coming soon. It will be the third birthday I miss. I guess somethings are not meant to be. Just like us I guess. Though a part of me would like to deny that, I've learned to accept the fact.
You asked me to let go. It was the most painful thing I have ever done. And I have let go in my own way. I just hold on to the memories we had, knowing that we will never make new memories together. It makes me a little sad to think of that. But it is the truth of the matter.
I am a little stressed out. The assignments I was working on, the files crashed and I have to redo them. Which is why I'm still up at 6am. Trying to rewrite as much as I can while I still remember what to write. Sigh. Its times like this I miss talking to you most. When I'm under tremendous pressure or stress. You'd always make things seem not as impossible as they actually are. Or you'd sing me a song and make me smile. You have a beautiful voice, and it rings at the hollow of my heart still.
Is it a kind of dream
flowing around in time
floating in my mind
drifting in my eyes
Is it a kind of wish
flying like a shooting star
falling like a fiery meteor
shining like the sun
Is it a kind of wonder
echoing like your laughter
whispering like your smile
smoothened like your touch
Been a little while for now
I've been keeping my eyes
searching for a sign
of your belated return
I sang all your songs
Whispered all your promises
Wishing they
would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
was it real
or just my fantasy
in a corner of my mind
Shall I be the one
to tell you love
that I love
and still love you
Silent farewell
So there you are
looking brave
as if you're never hurt
as if you're never afraid
So there you stand
tall and proud
cool and aloft
with that challenging
look in your eyes
They were baby brown once
Now they seem ice blue
Did you know I've had
mine on you
watching and yearning
to touch away the cold
push away the ice
and reach the warmth
that I once felt
looking brave
as if you're never hurt
as if you're never afraid
So there you stand
tall and proud
cool and aloft
with that challenging
look in your eyes
They were baby brown once
Now they seem ice blue
Did you know I've had
mine on you
watching and yearning
to touch away the cold
push away the ice
and reach the warmth
that I once felt
Monday, June 25, 2007
Something amusing I read in a forum
Michael Jordan having "retired," with $40 million in endorsements, makes $178,100 a day, working or not.
If he sleeps 7 hours a night, he makes $52,000 every night while visions of sugarplums dance in his head.
If he goes to see a movie, it'll cost him $7.00, but he'll make $18,550 while he's there.
If he decides to have a 5-minute egg, he'll make $618 while boiling it.
He makes $7,415/hr more than minimum wage.
He'll make $3,710 while watching each episode of Friends.
If he wanted to save up for a new Acura NSX ($90,000) it would take him a whole 12 hours.
If someone were to hand him his salary and endorsement money, they would have to do it at the rate of $2.00 every second.
He'll probably pay around $200 for a nice round of golf, but will be reimbursed $33,390 for that round.
Assuming he puts the federal maximum of 15% of his income into a tax deferred account (401k), his contributions will hit the federal cap of $9500 at 8:30 a.m. on January 1st.
If you were given a penny for every 10 dollars he made, you'd be living comfortably at $65,000 a year.
He'll make about $19.60 while watching the 100 meter dash in the Olympics, and about $15,600 during the Boston Marathon.
While the common person is spending about $20 for a meal in his trendy Chicago restaurant, he'll pull in about $5600.
This year, he'll make more than twice as much as all U.S. past presidents for all of their terms combined.
Amazing isn't it?However... If Jordan saves 100% of his income for the next 450 years, he'll still have less than Bill Gates has today. $$$ Game over. Nerd wins
If he sleeps 7 hours a night, he makes $52,000 every night while visions of sugarplums dance in his head.
If he goes to see a movie, it'll cost him $7.00, but he'll make $18,550 while he's there.
If he decides to have a 5-minute egg, he'll make $618 while boiling it.
He makes $7,415/hr more than minimum wage.
He'll make $3,710 while watching each episode of Friends.
If he wanted to save up for a new Acura NSX ($90,000) it would take him a whole 12 hours.
If someone were to hand him his salary and endorsement money, they would have to do it at the rate of $2.00 every second.
He'll probably pay around $200 for a nice round of golf, but will be reimbursed $33,390 for that round.
Assuming he puts the federal maximum of 15% of his income into a tax deferred account (401k), his contributions will hit the federal cap of $9500 at 8:30 a.m. on January 1st.
If you were given a penny for every 10 dollars he made, you'd be living comfortably at $65,000 a year.
He'll make about $19.60 while watching the 100 meter dash in the Olympics, and about $15,600 during the Boston Marathon.
While the common person is spending about $20 for a meal in his trendy Chicago restaurant, he'll pull in about $5600.
This year, he'll make more than twice as much as all U.S. past presidents for all of their terms combined.
Amazing isn't it?However... If Jordan saves 100% of his income for the next 450 years, he'll still have less than Bill Gates has today. $$$ Game over. Nerd wins
Friday, June 15, 2007
New story
Sylvia Mike is a confident and good looking man. His father passed away when he was young and his mother inherited a fortune which she intends to pass to him, the eldest son. His younger brother Jules is happy go lucky and not at all like Mike who is serious and short tempered. Mike falls in love with a girl named Sylvia. Her father is near bankruptcy and Mike's mother finances her father, saving him. Sylvia's father then tells her to marry Mike. So an arranged marriage is organized.
Mike tries his best to win over Sylvia's affections. But she is cold and distant from him. Sylvia's father explains that Sylvia has always been like this. Ever since her mother and only brother were killed in an accident; she's had trouble expressing her emotions.
When Mike finally seems to be making some progress, she falls ill. The doctors announce that she is barren and cannot have children. As time passes, Sylvias gets sicker and sicker. Mike is very caring and loving and takes care of Sylvia, tending to her every need and want. Sylvia doesn't tell Mike, but she is slowly falling in love with him. Then Sylvia's father dies of a heart attack after another failed business venture.
Sylvia is grief stricken and her condition worsens. Finally, she is so sick she is about to die. At her death bed, she tells Mike for the first time, that she loves him. And was afraid to love him because everyone she loved she lost.
Mike is full of guilt and remorse. He cries and says that it isn't fair. He didn't mean to kill her. Just make her sick enough to be dependant on him so that she would fall in love with him. He was poisoning her with organic mercury which was supposed to take years to kill or do any permanent damage, but for some strange reason Sylvia suffered its effects immediately. As he finishes his confession, he notices that she is already dead. He screams her name over and over again. Ends
Mike tries his best to win over Sylvia's affections. But she is cold and distant from him. Sylvia's father explains that Sylvia has always been like this. Ever since her mother and only brother were killed in an accident; she's had trouble expressing her emotions.
When Mike finally seems to be making some progress, she falls ill. The doctors announce that she is barren and cannot have children. As time passes, Sylvias gets sicker and sicker. Mike is very caring and loving and takes care of Sylvia, tending to her every need and want. Sylvia doesn't tell Mike, but she is slowly falling in love with him. Then Sylvia's father dies of a heart attack after another failed business venture.
Sylvia is grief stricken and her condition worsens. Finally, she is so sick she is about to die. At her death bed, she tells Mike for the first time, that she loves him. And was afraid to love him because everyone she loved she lost.
Mike is full of guilt and remorse. He cries and says that it isn't fair. He didn't mean to kill her. Just make her sick enough to be dependant on him so that she would fall in love with him. He was poisoning her with organic mercury which was supposed to take years to kill or do any permanent damage, but for some strange reason Sylvia suffered its effects immediately. As he finishes his confession, he notices that she is already dead. He screams her name over and over again. Ends
I'm lost for words!
I love to blabber. Especially when it comes to writing. I can't help but blabber on and on about something some times.... but mostly about nothing.
I haven't been doing very much lately... glued to my PC having a relapse of Ragnarok Online addiction... its kept me in the house and pretty busy... saving me tons of money! What so fascinating about a 2 dimensional cartoon game you ask? Well first of all.... its cute! The graphics are decent even up till today and the game is around 5 years old or more... then theres the game play... its bloody addictive... you want to collect items, equipments and cards... finally theres the people... the most important factor! I'm playing with a bunch of old online friends and its really cool playing with them again after a year plus or more... its fun and addictive... enough said...
its been a month since I've had any alcohol... or the urge to drink even... I guess that hangover I had after fang's b'day party really showed me that drinking is overated! I'm swearing off the stuff... well till I next get a beer any way :p
in other news baby is still not home... sigh... I miss her lots... we're thinking of getting a new puppy... maybe to ease the pain a little... I know it'll do my mom some good... In fact I know I know it'll do ME some good... I miss having a dog around the house... I'm alone most of the time now that I am on holiday... and I could use the company...
I finally got my cheque from the star... a miserable 240 ringgit for two articles... and I thought they were generous with their writers... bah to that thought... have another cheque thats supposed to be coming... like the first cheque... I bet it takes fucking ages to arrive... *SIGH*
I'm supposed to be writing two assignments for some friends of lez's.... won't go into details here... but they're pretty challenging... lots of reading up to do... its due on the 25th... trying to motivate myself to start... but am in a very lazy mood...
if you hadn't noticed... I've been in such a lazy mood I've neglected to blog too... nothing much going on... nothing much to say...
I also have some ideas running in my head for scripts... I want to do a modern day Tristam and Iseult romance story... but to add a lil 'Vince' to the story... i.e. make it darker and more morbid... ahhaah.... we'll see how it goes.... have another story about a one sided love in a marriage... thats in the works too... started off like 5 pages... then I got bored... and lost my focus... oh well... we'll see how things go...
oh... and if you do read this... say a prayer for my grand mother if you're religious will ya... she's unwell... if you're not... just wish her well... thats fine as well...
ok... thats quite a lot of words for someone whose lost for words... I'm once again impressed with myself...
not quite
but it will do :)
I haven't been doing very much lately... glued to my PC having a relapse of Ragnarok Online addiction... its kept me in the house and pretty busy... saving me tons of money! What so fascinating about a 2 dimensional cartoon game you ask? Well first of all.... its cute! The graphics are decent even up till today and the game is around 5 years old or more... then theres the game play... its bloody addictive... you want to collect items, equipments and cards... finally theres the people... the most important factor! I'm playing with a bunch of old online friends and its really cool playing with them again after a year plus or more... its fun and addictive... enough said...
its been a month since I've had any alcohol... or the urge to drink even... I guess that hangover I had after fang's b'day party really showed me that drinking is overated! I'm swearing off the stuff... well till I next get a beer any way :p
in other news baby is still not home... sigh... I miss her lots... we're thinking of getting a new puppy... maybe to ease the pain a little... I know it'll do my mom some good... In fact I know I know it'll do ME some good... I miss having a dog around the house... I'm alone most of the time now that I am on holiday... and I could use the company...
I finally got my cheque from the star... a miserable 240 ringgit for two articles... and I thought they were generous with their writers... bah to that thought... have another cheque thats supposed to be coming... like the first cheque... I bet it takes fucking ages to arrive... *SIGH*
I'm supposed to be writing two assignments for some friends of lez's.... won't go into details here... but they're pretty challenging... lots of reading up to do... its due on the 25th... trying to motivate myself to start... but am in a very lazy mood...
if you hadn't noticed... I've been in such a lazy mood I've neglected to blog too... nothing much going on... nothing much to say...
I also have some ideas running in my head for scripts... I want to do a modern day Tristam and Iseult romance story... but to add a lil 'Vince' to the story... i.e. make it darker and more morbid... ahhaah.... we'll see how it goes.... have another story about a one sided love in a marriage... thats in the works too... started off like 5 pages... then I got bored... and lost my focus... oh well... we'll see how things go...
oh... and if you do read this... say a prayer for my grand mother if you're religious will ya... she's unwell... if you're not... just wish her well... thats fine as well...
ok... thats quite a lot of words for someone whose lost for words... I'm once again impressed with myself...
not quite
but it will do :)
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Baby sighting
Baby was seen wandering around ss19/4G... thats pretty close to my house... She's still alive but has lost a lot of weight... wandering from house to house sniffing and looking for my house... sigh... Makes me sad to think she's been in the wild with no food or water or shelter for the past 3 months...
I really hope we find her and that she's not too sick... If we find her I'll shave my head bald again... and you know how much I hate looking bald...
I miss her so much... its unbelievable... my poor baby... I feel so bad thinking that I was about to buy a new dog... when she's still wandering around looking for my house... trying her best to get home...
I guess its too soon...
I pray we find her... if there is a God... for once... just once... smile upon my family and I...
I really hope we find her and that she's not too sick... If we find her I'll shave my head bald again... and you know how much I hate looking bald...
I miss her so much... its unbelievable... my poor baby... I feel so bad thinking that I was about to buy a new dog... when she's still wandering around looking for my house... trying her best to get home...
I guess its too soon...
I pray we find her... if there is a God... for once... just once... smile upon my family and I...
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