Just frustrating...

I feel like kicking myself in the ass. I had plenty of time to revise but being the procrastinator I am, I took my time and waited to the last minute like I always do. And brilliantly, at the last minute I came down with serious stomach flu. Thats right. Diahorea and non stop vomitting. I want to be able to regurgitate facts and concepts and have mental diahorea, not shit myself silly and puke half eaten food.

I'm so pissed off with myself. The papers were so EASY. I was too sick to concentrate. Popping panadols like they were memory pills didn't help at all. In fact it made me drowsier. Yea braniac... thats what pain killers do, slow down your bodily functions. Didn't occur to you then did it? No wonder I'm flunking two subjects.

Little wonder if I flunk all my subjects cause I'm such a natural genius. God knows my timing is impecable. RIGHT the day BEFORE the exams, when I'm supposed to start revising I go into 'I'm so sick, if you pissed on me I couldn't lift a finger to poke you' mode.

What really disgusts me is that I memorised the damn names of the concepts. All of them. I even had little tunes to sing-along to for the concept names, courtesy of Ryan and Brana. But I couldn't for the life of me, even if nicole kidman offered me the sex of a lifetime, remember the explainations and information for the concepts.

Ironically one of the topics I was hoping would come out was memory. Thats another whole new rant. NONE of the topics I studied my heart and soul out for came out. They came out for the multiple choice part of the exam which I had no problems with. But the essays... dear lord the essays... They were like a woman waiting to be taken for the ride of her life, and you find out that lil Vince isn't in the mood for some hanky panky.

Come to think of it. I might have done better thinking with little Vince than using my brains. Probably more information stored there than in my pathethic brain.

My freaking CGPA is gonna plunge and I'm gonna be an embarassment to scholar students. As if I need MORE freaking things to worry about in life. Thanks God, feel free to piss on the shit you dropped on me as well.

I'm STRESSED out... BIG time.. Stress... ANOTHER FREAKING TOPIC I MEMORISED THE CONCEPTS FOR AND FORGOT THE DAMN EXPLAINATIONS....

I HATE pyschology... its like my life written on paper. Except that I don't remember anything about it. Cause remembering would strain the two brain cells I have left.

You know what I should have done? I should have spent that seven hours I struggled to study through my illness to drink beer instead. Kill off the two remaining brain cells and laugh my balls off at all the questions cause they made as much sense to me as why the scots prefer sheep to women.

Damn this whole situation. Now I'll have to work my ass off next semester to get decent grades to boost my ego, CGPA and most importantly, prove that little head is not smarter than big head.

BLAH

The past haunts my music

Listening to our songs
feeling kinda jaded
The memories of you and me
have slowly faded

Listening to our songs
I feel so tired
Like I've lost everything
that I've ever desired

Listening to our song
I feel so forlorn
Now you're not here
Now that you're gone.

Listening to our song
I feel so lost
Knowing that I would have kept you
at all cost

Listening to our song
I just can't understand
What stopped me
from being your man

Listening to our song
I feel a little sad
but I tell myself
its not so bad

Listening to our song
Reminds me of us
The friendship, love
the companionship, the trust

Stick with you
Here by me
Just two plain songs
but special as can be

Hunger... get out of my mind

FOR ALL THE FAT PEOPLE OUT THERE.... I KNOW HOW U FEEL NOW! MY METABOLISM HAS GONE TO THE CRAPPER. AND NOW I TOO AM FAT. I DEDICATE THIS REMIX TO ALL OF YOU!

Hunger

Hunger... get out of my mind.
my love for you is bad for my waistline
I better run, girl, I much too fat, girl

With the charms of cholestorol and grease
You've made it no secret you're a tease
You led me me you were true enough to give me love
Now I'm so oily I need to wash myself with a glove

Hunger... get out of my mind.
my love for you is bad for my waistline
I better run, girl, I'm much too fat, girl
Beneath the chocolate fondue and ice cream,
So much fat that it makes my heart scream!
Although I know its wrong to be with you
My tummy rumblings have never been so true~ Oh! Oh!

Hunger, get out of my mind,
my love for you is bad for my waisline
I better run girl, I'm much fat girl.

So hurry home, and come to papa,
Let me taste the wonders that you are.
No wait! From my fatty heart I changed my mind
I've recognised you for your kind!

Oh! Oh!
Hunger~ get out of my mind
My love for you is bad for my waistline

Original by Urban Gap. Check it out.. its a cool song! Not as cool as mine... but pretty decent ;)
Young Girl

Young Girl, get out of my mind,
my love for you is way out of line.
Better run, girl, you're much too young, girl.

With all the charms of a woman,
You've kept the secret of your youth.
You led me to believe you're old enough to give me love
and now it hurts to know the truth. Oh, Oh,

Young Girl, get out of my mind,
my love for you is way out of line.
Better run, girl, you're much too young, girl.
Beneath your perfume and make-up,
You're just a baby in disquise
And though you know that it's wrong to be alone with me,
that come on look is in your eyes. Oh, Oh,

Young Girl,
get out of my mind,
my love for you is way out of line.
Better run, girl, you're much too young, girl.

So hurry home to your mama
I'm sure she wonders where you are.
Get out of here before I have the time to change my mind
'cause I'm afraid we'll go too far

Young Girl, get out of my mind,
my love for you is way out of line.
Better run, girl, you're much too young, girl.
Young Girl, get out of my mind,
my love for you is way out of line.
Better run, girl, you're much too young, girl

more photoshop work

something I colored two years back... was my first (the pastel one) and second attempt (the Itachi one) on coloring so go easy... I think I'll pick up the hobby again after my exams..

What people do when they can't sleep

This is a conversation me and darling eunice had over flooble one sleepless night. As you can see... she adores me :p

eun
vince is a perverted hamsap dude

Vince
Eun being the recipient knows this best :D

eun
ahuh. tried flashing at me. very small very small....

Vince
showing you my pinkie doesn't count as flashing eun hun

eun
aiksz, didn't know u had 11 fingers. did the extra finger grew between your crotch?omg! if that's ur pinkie? wtf is ur *ahem*? even smaller sampai pinkie overshadowed? *tsk tsk*

eun
at ur crotch* (LOL)

Vince
sigh... you caught me... I blame it on the chinese blood

eun
and u got the indian boobs

Vince
they're muscles... not boobs... *flexes*

eun
explains y it bounces when u walk. u were a confusing target for me to stalk. man? woman? man? woman?

Vince
Manly muscles bounce when you walk... haven't you ever watched Mr. Universe?

eun
sorry, shallow mindless shows are a turn off. explains y your hamsap advances never work

Vince
Its just cause I don't try hard enough on you eunice... I know you want me :p

eun
yes hun... i do....

eun
n then u wake up

Vince
normally next to you... but lets not go into details

eun
n then u wake up again

Vince
and you've made me breakfast in bed... so sweet :D

eun
*laughs* u just don't know it contains ridsect. u know? to get rid of pests?

Vince
at least I'm your favorite 'pest' :D... p/s shieldtox works better

eun
hun, ur voices been talking to u again? usually shieldtox goes into ur beers

Vince
if by voices you mean you whispering 'Vince I want you'... yea... I'm heairng voices right now :p

eun
damn, ur so obsessed over me till u hear ME in ur head? psycho piece of shit. btw, ana's name is disappearing. she might penalize u cos she won't be able to c her name up here anymore. plus, if i wanted mIRC, i wudve d/l-ed it :P

Vince
nope not voices in my head... your gentle voice whispering in my ear... MIRC is for nerds...

eun
vince called me fat

Vince
you're oh so adorably chubby :D

Vince
cute too ;)

eun
sorry la...niki's cute. not me.

Vince
MUST have the last word la... after I go to sleep!

Changed the picture

and moved things around a little.... hope ya'll like it...

felt like a change was necessary after two years plus... to reflect that I have changed too...

:)

tell me what you think

Wondering

Have you ever wanted to change the past? I'm sure you have. Everyone has regrets in one manner or another.

I'd like to talk about my biggest regret but thats too personal to put on my blog. It would hurt some people and anger others. So let us talk about changing the past instead.

I watched Next the day before yesterday. It was about a man who could see into his own future by two minutes. Thus, giving him the power to alter his future when ever he pleased. But within two minutes.

Imagine if you were given the power to alter the past instead. What would you change?

Its a big big question that takes some soul searching to answer for some. For others the answers come a lot easier. There was a major event that changed their lives forever.

Changing the past would affect the future would it not? Of course it would. If you stopped a man from being hit by a car, that very same man might the next day kill a person. Effectively changing the future. But time flows endlessly. Does one act of changing the past stop the future from becoming what happened in the first place? I don't think so.

So for the past to change, logically, there must be alternate timelines.

If I could change the past, then there would be alternate mes since there are alternative timelines.

But the quesion is, would I be selfless enough to change the past so that another me could live happily? Why should I live miserably while another me has the perfect life?

Just pondering

Black and white

Do you always see in
black and white?
What of the shades of gray
in your sight?

What of the colors
wonderful and bright?
The quiet shades
of the gentle night

Do you always
differentiate wrong from right?
Give in to norms
without a fight?

Did you judge me
in your black and white world
Did it make you sick?
Did it make you hurl?

I am only human
I am only sick
If only I could get better
by some cheap trick

Do you fear in your heart
what is different?
Things you can't touch
the things that aren't apparent

Do you fear me?
I am beyond black and white
I am beyond the colors
that you can sight

Am I beyond you?
Can't you understand
I'm trying hard
just to be your man.

Seasons

People go through cycles too I believe. Everyone has their summer, autumn, spring and even winter. But unlike the world's weather, our seasons are not conditioned to certain time frames of lengths. To some, winter has been going on for years. To others, its been summer ever since they were born.

Spring time is a time of birth, change and growth. A time for new loves and romances. New friendships. Everything is fresh and you have the opportunity to make what every you want of the rest of the following seasons during this time. All in all, spring is a time for hopes and resolutions. A time for motivation and a time to move forwards.

Summer is the full bloom of spring. Everything is beautiful. Wonderful in its on amazing way. From relationships to work to your education. To your family. Everything fits together perfectly and seems seamlessly bound together. It is a wonderful time and a time for memories and happiness.

Autumn is the fading summer. Things look a little more apprehensive. Just a little more troubled in the horizons. Feelings of confusion, hurt, distrust start to seed in your minds. And you wonder where summer went, feeling the chill of autumns touch.

Winter is the death of optimism. Everything is grey and dark. Everything seems hopeless. Nothing works the way its supposed to. Nothing seems right.

I believe we can control our seasons. Pyschologists would probably have a fancy theory for our 'seasons'. My seasons is a lot simpler to understand. You just need to hold on to that special moment. Or live through the darkness to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

In the end, we are but human. We live and die and time still goes on as if nothing happened. So we should live well. Live happy. And live to the utmost of our abilities.

There's no room for giving up. For losing. For not snatching those precious moments in life that would pass us by if we did not clutch to them dearly.

Carpe diem.

Phrase of the day.

more photshop work

Euthanasia... :)

Some photoshop work :p

This is for PETA... the think ink not mink campaign