Mixed up

so confused right now...

the thing from the past touch me... the things from the present lay their hands on me... which is right... which is wrong.... if either is right that is... I wish I had some one to talk to about this... hehe ever the loner in thoughts... I don't...

except for my blog... thank god for my blog....

warm fingers... I still feel them tingle.... a soft touch on my heart... I still feel that as well.... which is right... which is wrong... I really don't know... mostly I don't want either to be wrong... sigh.... I wish I were two people... that would make things so much easier...

not to say theres a chance with either loves of mine...

then again theres not much of a chance with anything anymore is there vince... :)

Sleepless

As the title says... I'm suffering from insomania... too much work and too little time. I wish I cared more. Am a moody due to lack of sleep. Moody is perhaps an understatement. Any ways heres a crappy poem I wrote to unwind before I force myself to sleep. No wonder they say poets are a dime a dozen. Cheap ryhmes galore I guess. I'm out.

Sleepless.
Yet dreaming of what we were.
Remembering who I was
When you were near.

A quiet in the room
That used to be filled with you
An empty heart
That never was untrue

Theres gotta be more
More for me to say,
To stop me from losing you
In this sad sad way.

The distance grows
Yet I yearn for you to be close
I need you
I need my daily dose.

You were my one
My sweet tranquiliser
My burning hope
My one desire.

My morning rest
My miday break
My afternoon ease
My work day’s stake

What went so bad
What went so wrong
That you left me here alone
For far too long.

I miss you so
I just wanted to say
I wish I could see you
Even if… just for today.

I’m thinking of you
I just wanted to say.
And I wish you were here
In every possible way.